Three things in the past month...

Okay, I've been MIA again! I'm back now (I think).

It's been an interesting month.

(1) My birthday was a couple of weeks ago. I had the best birthday week ever! It really was great, it ended with a party at the bar I used to work at. Friends from home and college came down to party, it was great. Since I knew I would be drinking lots I asked a friend to check in w/ me every hour so that I could test my blood. She rocked, however, one of the times I tested I was 240 and the next time I tested my blood sugar was 70. My friends freaked out, they started badgering me, circling around me and apparently shoved a cupcake in my mouth. I was fine, blood wasn't low, I didn't ask for that kind of help. I know it was all out of love, but the next day my roommate told me how much it upset me (I was a little drunk so I didn't remember exactly). My roommate, N, actually was very upset. She was going to leave with the girls, but was so upset by the way they were acting that she didn't want to leave with them. N said that I kept saying how small it made me feel being treated like that. It's hard because how do you fault someone for caring for you...

(2) I'm thinking of leaving my job. N helped me with my resume and I already sent it out to one company. Keeping my fingers crossed.

(3) Something really sad happened this week. A friend of two of my really great friends took her own life last weekend. My heartbroke for this girl, her family and friends (I had never even met her). I'm having a difficult time dealing with it, for two reasons (1) my friends have to be hurting. If I'm upset I can only imagine what they are going through. (2) why would someone take their own life?? why?